What I wanna be too

I was playing my guitar as usual today and just felt like telling mum what I had on my mind

"Eh, i'm going to learn guitar in some music sch this coming holiday leh. "
"Hmm ok loh."
"You not complaining meh?"
"Aiya, holiday go and play mah."
"I need to spend some money also mah."
"A bit only..."
"Actually, I wanna learn how to compose my own music that's why i'm going to music sch"
"Wahhhhh...... sure or not.... then next time cut your own album ah?"
" no la, just learn, maybe next time i'm good enough to perform at gigs, then have extra pocket money. "
" oh ok la, not bad. "


Pretty encouraging. Hahaha.

About Oppression

Serious topic thought about in the shower.

Just a brief random thought anyway.

What are locals oppressed by?

Nah I don't know. But something along the lines that I thought of was that many people are entangled in this knowledge race and many schools, bogus or not have been propagating pretty well here.

Lower educated people find it hard to get a good paying job
Lower educated people who are old end up doing jobs that are not suitable for their age such as cleaning for say 8 hrs a day, driving taxis for long hours.

There's this little old lady cleaning the library block. Sometimes it pains me to see her cleaning, dragging trash out everyday. And it's done solo and probably a solitary job done for most of a working day.
Social life shrinks as we age I suppose, compounded by her lack of social interaction in her job. She sees plenty of people each day - in the lifts, on library and ground floors, but I guess very very few would even bother to smile at her. I certainly hope my mum won't fall into the same fate as her and I hope we'll see lesser of these in SG. My mum's fingernailbed infection from her last childcare job pains me enough already.

I'm no expert on management issues and stuff but I think something should be done to pepper up low wage workers' life. Going back to the little hideout underneath the staircase to chat with other co-workers seems pretty sad.

On the other hand I think the school security team seems to have a much better time. Sitting on bikes patrolling, sitting in an air-con room monitoring threats (though if a threat comes, there's nothing much they can do except dial 999). Therefore a sweeping conclusion here would be that comfortable working environment is important.

Opportunities to socialise is also important. Some cleaners are talkative, some are not; but I guess those who express themselves often have a much brighter life.

I remember a career talk held back in JC.

"......hope you guys will go back and think about your future. For me, this is my future already, I'm here teaching you all. "

Or does it mean "there goes my search for a 'future'"?


Increasingly, I begin to define "future" as a state of uncertainty with an optimistic outlook.

So it's like when you land a job, your "future" kinda pauses or might unfortunately end depending on you and your situational circumstances.

So the proposed model is this :


School (hope) -------"FUTURE"-------> Job (might be a wall)



I hope the future also belongs to the cleaners. Human beings deserve more than just sweeping floors and clearing trash.

On Philip Yeo

This was something Philip Yeo supposedly commented somewhere on the internet :


A very self-important university freshman attending a recent football game, took it upon himself to explain to a senior citizen sitting next to him why it was impossible for the older generation to understand his generation.

“You grew up in a different world, actually an almost primitive one,” the student said, loud enough for many of those nearby to hear. “The young people of today grew up with television, jet planes, space travel, man walking on the moon, our spaceships have visited Mars. We have nuclear energy, electric and hydrogen cars, computers with light-speed processing and…,” pausing to take another drink of beer.

The Senior took advantage of the break in the student’s litany and said,

“You’re right, son. We didn’t have those things when we were young…..so we invented them. Now, you arrogant little XXXX, what are you doing for the next generation?”

Sometimes I like him. =)

compositions

last night was pretty satisfying
i managed to compose a verse and a chorus on my own
the tune was pretty nice (in my opinion) but penning lyrics proved a little more difficult
the humming of how my would-be lyrics was just simply natural when i went ahead strumming
but...... i still have a long way to go.


Hope i get more creative tonight. =)

New Year Resolution

This is the first time I felt compelled to have a true resolution after reading a webpage given by Kenny.

There's so much more to life.

So I must set my philosophies and directions right in order not to miss them.

Not in any order, just how the ideas flowed in.

1. To look at someone in the eye when talking to them
- I guess I'm missing out a lot when I just steer away cos I find it stressful to look at people in eye, guy or not.

2. To remove my remnant holier-than-thou attitude
- hopefully most of you have not sensed it, but I'm still a little arrogant deep inside

3. To express my feelings honestly
- so that I'll not miss out on greater things in life

4. To expunge NS-speak and persona
- to be more pleasant to the ears

5. To not shy away too much
- to take things easy at times

Axiom : All our actions are intended to lead to Happiness.
Philosophy : To look at Life honestly and understand it to achieve the ultimate goal of happiness.

6. To sleep earlier
- cos I have a huge sleeping debt to clear since NS
- cos my peers can't sleep early
- to change the world, start from myself, let's see if it's true

7. To treat my parents better
- one of the better ways to express my love for them
- i don't abuse my parents by the way =D

8. To up my guitar skills after my exams
- probably gonna learn under Ernest

9. To evangelise all XP and Vista users to Mac
- Mac is a superior system!
- I'm another hardcore Mac fan. Not.

10. Learn more accents
- gotta fully utilise my vocal cords!



Now I can press on with unchained feet. =)

Epic Movie

it's pretty ironic that I watched this show for borat but turns out he came out at the last 30 seconds to just say " Jagsemash, you make-a very nai-ce happy yending fur diese show. Greattt Successs! ".

And out of the many spoofs, i only watched DaVinci and Borat before. Gnarnia, Willy Wonka, X-men(ok, this one i know), Kumar and White Castle were just pretty vague ideas i've got thru watching trailers.

I roamed the streets with tim and kelly finding wee hour supper. We went to Kopitiam near SMU which was boring and empty, then to a muslim stall that was flooded and under-manned, then to Hawa which was unfortunately closed. Finally we clocked probably around 1.5km when we desperately went to Bugis Macs.

My bedsheets were undone when I reached home but i was too tired and just spreaded my blanket over and slept, without showering (just to emphasise how tired i am). I feeel a little bit of sore throat coming up, hope it heals today! Pls dun stretch into CNY! =)

This recesss week was set at the wrong time, seriously. How am I going to study so many subjects when it's CNY? my e-commerce is still on the rocks and it's CNY, i'll be like so absent-minded that i'll forget to S/U it. But i hope i dun need to!

Ok Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone!

Frustrated

I don't like V-day, I feel daunted by it.
To top it up, friends have been telling me to go for it
I really don't think I stand much of a chance
I literally grow weak when I see her.

There are 3 paths that I thought of

1. Go for it
2. Substitute that thought with other form of worldly pursuits
3. Abandon all

Home Ideas

After forgetting my german uni choices, i realised i could recover those info from my blog, hence i'm going write down some of my ideas here lest i forget again.

I was visiting the phylogenetic garden on my own sometime back and i saw this pot of aquatic plants with small fishies inside. So i think it's pretty nice to have my own symbiotic pot of plants and fishes to complement my mini garden.

I've got quite some sun here so algae growth should be stupendous and they'll be food for the fishes while they and plants settle the shit of fishies. Baby fish frys should be able to thrive here since i do not intend to use any filtration system here.

Now... to look for an arty farty pot. =)

SEP shat

Clare told me Ben's nick was SEP = Seeing Extra Problems
Very true!

It isn't that bad honestly, just that I have to learn to translate german webpages on my own, sometimes thru Google translator (hoping I get a perfect translation, most of the time it' s 80% so not bad!)

XQ and some people have told me how curt a reply they have gotten back from the admin side regarding their application.

Ok, that's the end of the first pessimistic prelude.

Now after I hopefully finish this module mapping shat, I hope to sit down and read thru my IT1004 and do a little of my presentation. Maybe touch on Bio-D cos I seriously haven't read thru anything since day1. Mug for my series of german tests. Sit down and visualise the human body map.

I just found a Brewing Master Diploma (equiv. to Bachelor) in Technical University of Munich, how cool is that!

Till then.