At the pit of mental will and energy.

I rose up from bed this morning/afternoon (close to 12noon) to find myself having weak limbs and a sore torso. Even after breakfast I still felt lethargic. Spoke to my mum about how I feel this time about the exams. That I'll not do as well as before.
I should not be overly stressed she said. Which I think sounds pretty true.

Right now I'm just still a little sad over my german results. Sad that I probably can't maintain my grades for german anymore. Regretfully, I regurgitated out the thought of not going for germany immersion and boy it feels kinda sourishly bad. I betta maximise my HK stay after exams. Maybe even stay longer to feel the local culture properly.

I also hope that she will not simply go/look offline so quickly.

I hope I'll get out of this loserish cycle quick and resume the normal self.

I need an optimistic read somewhere, somehow.